When it’s different, you can just tell.
The little things start adding up, the small changes start becoming more obvious, the excuses start coming more frequently.
And finally you realize…
You can’t force “it” to be something. You can’t force consistency, loyalty, or even honesty. You can’t force them to keep their word, or to communicate, or to realize something special is in front of them. You can’t force them to stay and fight, or to change their ways, or to use their faith to conquer their fears.
It hurts falling for untapped potential.
So, after realizing all of this, you just get tired…You’d rather play the game because it takes too much energy to change the standard. You’d rather settle for good enough because it takes too much time to build something great. And, you’d think that after all the hurt we’ve been through that we’d be better at being good to one another. But we aren’t.
Instead, we run when it’s too right. We get scared when they’re too sincere. We make excuses instead of making the effort. And that’s the cycle, so none of us ever get anywhere. What we ask for is simple, but we don’t really believe we deserve it…Because to us, “simple” means too good to be true. We’re all so used to the pain that if it doesn’t hurt, we can’t feel it. If it isn’t full of drama, we don’t believe they care. If there’s nothing to argue about, it’s not really love.
And that’s why I choose to move slow, because more than anything, I just want to get “it” right, with somebody who is just as tired of getting it wrong as I am. We don’t need it to be perfect to make it last. All we need is effort, 100% from you and 100% from me. We’ll let God work out the rest.